Dear Future Me,

write to your future self with Spotify and Billie Eilish - click here By now, I hope you know how hard I have worked to be exactly where you are. By consciously remaining balanced, aligned, and centered in all that comes to be, I hope that you have found your presence.I hope by now that … Continue reading Dear Future Me,

Happy Birthday Angel “of my life”.

Mimi, Do you remember that? “Angel of my life”, “Light of my life”? I remember you referring to me as either - out at the ranch, in the kitchen, after you’d belly laughed at any of the conversations we used to have. Conversations about anything. You’re eyes were lights as you spent time with your … Continue reading Happy Birthday Angel “of my life”.

Your balance and happiness are priceless.

I wish that I could be more than me; more than someone who lives waiting for something that will never happen. I wish that I could be more than sick, more than lonely, more than “I don’t feel well”, more than depressed, more than the anxiety the occupies my mind always at the worst time. … Continue reading Your balance and happiness are priceless.

A poem for a difficult week.

What’s the feeling you try, but can’t explain The one that tends to block blood flow from your veins? Oxygen suspended, like outer space Go ahead, take a breath before you suffocate. Call up your “friends” for breath and support After all, that’s what they’re there for Right? No, I forget, it’s on their accord … Continue reading A poem for a difficult week.

Memory

Facebook Memory - August 12, 2011 "How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic for the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life, you will have been all of these." -George Washington Carver 💗 Facebook Memory - August … Continue reading Memory

WILD

-Troye Sivan https://youtu.be/3awzvNrKDsg 💙💛💖, Bailey

Happy Eighth Birthday, PopPop!

Chachi, Your eighth birthday hasn't been exactly as you hoped for, I know. I'm so glad that you have some good doctors, though, and you're getting taken care of well! (With all of these meds, you may be having a pretty good time today 😂). You've been a soft place for me to fall through … Continue reading Happy Eighth Birthday, PopPop!

“I’m sick of losing soulmates.”

*Explicit song lyrics* "I can take the hit, but I'm sorry - I don't want the bruise." - "Headspace" by Lewis Capaldi Loyalty is a lifestyle - not a choice, but it's a lifestyle that people just don't chose to live anymore. Unfortunately, fibromyalgia and Sjögren's Syndrome choose the loyal behavior far more often than … Continue reading “I’m sick of losing soulmates.”

Priorities.

My biggest source of pain, hurt, betrayal, and truth. Priorities. They show you what matters to other's - and when it doesn't turn out to be you, and you've given them your all... I wish I knew how to not wear my heart on my sleeve... Then I have heard that because I do, it … Continue reading Priorities.

Feral.

She's different. You pushed her to be different. Her life is full of suppressing her differences so that she can fit in and look popular at school. She pulls it off well. At home, she walks into the door, and collapses - trying not to make it too obvious. Her sister doesn't collapse. At home … Continue reading Feral.