Black Dog.

Anxiety and pain have been the only two emotions I’ve experienced this year. Yes, this entire year. Blow a bit of happiness across the surface of it all, like glitter, but that’s all that it’s been — specks that shine in the light when you focus enough to see them. In a room of blinding … Continue reading Black Dog.

We’re breathing underwater.

“What the fuck is wrong with me?” “I think you don’t feel good, you’re tired, you’re scared, you feel alone, and there are a lot of unknowns right now.” https://youtu.be/WgKTCweubC8 We've all been told when we were littleWe could grow up and live a fairy tale,But no one ever bothered telling us thatThe storybook ending … Continue reading We’re breathing underwater.

Three

https://youtu.be/2GNYSWeCwDg “I told you I'd spill my guts.I left you to clean it up,I'm bursting out of the.... Seems like now, it's impossible to work this out.I'm so committed to an old ghost town.Is it really that strange if I always wanna change?And if only - the time and space between us wasn't lonely,I'd disintegrate … Continue reading Three

You’re sorry.

"I'm sorry that I don't know what you're feeling!" It's always said out of anger; I think because you're tired of me "not trying" - such that its obvious to you. Or Maybe because I don't have the energy to fight. Maybe because I don't have the energy to feel such an intense emotion, Maybe … Continue reading You’re sorry.

Sunshine & Starlight

Yesterday, I walked up to their house in a hurry. I was about 10 minutes later than planned. My DD opened the front door - I was greeted by his Mini Aussie, named Ring and a strong, loving hug - the hug I've missed along this road. He felt better today since he was going … Continue reading Sunshine & Starlight

I Guess I Found a Time Machine.

Lately it's been a daily whirlwind of pain... It all started with my diagnosis with mono. My doctor wanted to do an ultrasound of my spleen and upper abdomen, since there had never been one ordered before - only an ultrasound for my gallbladder in 2015. Im not sure how many have followed me through … Continue reading I Guess I Found a Time Machine.