write to your future self with Spotify and Billie Eilish - click here By now, I hope you know how hard I have worked to be exactly where you are. By consciously remaining balanced, aligned, and centered in all that comes to be, I hope that you have found your presence.I hope by now that … Continue reading Dear Future Me,
I can't drive without seeing your face in all the windows of the spots at all ourPlacesAsked my dad, "how long will it take?"He said, "maybe forever, but it will get better...”...I get it, she didn't get me, but my heart is soreNow I’m seeing what this distance is forYou don't get meSo you don't … Continue reading U Don’t Get Me
Don't make me sad, don't make me crySometimes love is not enough, and the road gets tough,I don't know why.- “Born To Die” by Lana Del Rey https://youtu.be/Bag1gUxuU0g
Anxiety and pain have been the only two emotions I’ve experienced this year. Yes, this entire year. Blow a bit of happiness across the surface of it all, like glitter, but that’s all that it’s been — specks that shine in the light when you focus enough to see them. In a room of blinding … Continue reading Black Dog.
You feel it, right? Allow me to say, you are far from alone. Isolation is an all too familiar feeling for all of us right now. We all feel it. We all feel alone at the same time. We are all over the quarantine. We are all over the coronavirus. We are all over 2020. … Continue reading “The End of the World”
Mimi, Do you remember that? “Angel of my life”, “Light of my life”? I remember you referring to me as either - out at the ranch, in the kitchen, after you’d belly laughed at any of the conversations we used to have. Conversations about anything. You’re eyes were lights as you spent time with your … Continue reading Happy Birthday Angel “of my life”.
“What the fuck is wrong with me?” “I think you don’t feel good, you’re tired, you’re scared, you feel alone, and there are a lot of unknowns right now.” https://youtu.be/WgKTCweubC8 We've all been told when we were littleWe could grow up and live a fairy tale,But no one ever bothered telling us thatThe storybook ending … Continue reading We’re breathing underwater.
I wish that I could be more than me; more than someone who lives waiting for something that will never happen. I wish that I could be more than sick, more than lonely, more than “I don’t feel well”, more than depressed, more than the anxiety the occupies my mind always at the worst time. … Continue reading Your balance and happiness are priceless.
So many people are going through the hardest time in their lives right now. Alone or lonely, lost or confused, frustrated or depressed, it’s all pretty much the same for us all. I just want you all to know: You are NOT alone. Every life matters. Every emotion matters. Every doubt, every tear, every bottle, … Continue reading The Blinding Truth of it All
What’s the feeling you try, but can’t explain The one that tends to block blood flow from your veins? Oxygen suspended, like outer space Go ahead, take a breath before you suffocate. Call up your “friends” for breath and support After all, that’s what they’re there for Right? No, I forget, it’s on their accord … Continue reading A poem for a difficult week.