Black Dog.

Anxiety and pain have been the only two emotions I’ve experienced this year. Yes, this entire year. Blow a bit of happiness across the surface of it all, like glitter, but that’s all that it’s been — specks that shine in the light when you focus enough to see them. In a room of blinding … Continue reading Black Dog.

We’re breathing underwater.

“What the fuck is wrong with me?” “I think you don’t feel good, you’re tired, you’re scared, you feel alone, and there are a lot of unknowns right now.” https://youtu.be/WgKTCweubC8 We've all been told when we were littleWe could grow up and live a fairy tale,But no one ever bothered telling us thatThe storybook ending … Continue reading We’re breathing underwater.

Your balance and happiness are priceless.

I wish that I could be more than me; more than someone who lives waiting for something that will never happen. I wish that I could be more than sick, more than lonely, more than “I don’t feel well”, more than depressed, more than the anxiety the occupies my mind always at the worst time. … Continue reading Your balance and happiness are priceless.

The Blinding Truth of it All

So many people are going through the hardest time in their lives right now. Alone or lonely, lost or confused, frustrated or depressed, it’s all pretty much the same for us all. I just want you all to know: You are NOT alone. Every life matters. Every emotion matters. Every doubt, every tear, every bottle, … Continue reading The Blinding Truth of it All

When a song is the definition of you…

I'd like to tell you that my sky's not blue, it's violent rain And in my world, the people on the street don't know my name In my world, I'm seven feet tall And the boys always call, and the girls do too Because in my world, I'm constantly, constantly havin' a breakthrough (Hmm) Or a breakdown, or a … Continue reading When a song is the definition of you…

Hurt people hurt people.

A Rare Lesson in Life Click above to watch an amazing story of kindness and empathy. She paints such a beautiful picture of all that our world could be, if only we all remembered that everyone has a battle they're fighting. All that we need to do is be kind. It sounds so easy, when … Continue reading Hurt people hurt people.

I won’t follow you.

"Be nice to my Bae!" I hear on the other side of the phone. (My mom has always called me "Bae", spelled just as so. Before it was considered to be a significant other.) "You can't love [someone else] until you love yourself first... How do you expect to?" How do I respond to that? … Continue reading I won’t follow you.

You’re sorry.

"I'm sorry that I don't know what you're feeling!" It's always said out of anger; I think because you're tired of me "not trying" - such that its obvious to you. Or Maybe because I don't have the energy to fight. Maybe because I don't have the energy to feel such an intense emotion, Maybe … Continue reading You’re sorry.

Stone.

In the past, I've walked through the grocery store, mall, etc. feeling, hours into the errand, as if my feet were walking behind my upper body, just trying to keep up with myself, trying to keep up with everyone else. At this point, I'm dragging 80lb sand bags by each ankle. Spaghetti  Am I even … Continue reading Stone.

I’m Wrecked.

This last year has given me every reason to enjoy the people around me that are present. I think more people would do the same if they remembered that at anytime, we could lose someone we love. I don’t ask this much... but right now, I feel is a time that is appropriate to reach … Continue reading I’m Wrecked.