Pause.

It's on the days of which required a bit of venting to make it through that I have to remember: that's what "Fearlessly Making Sunshine" is all about. The name of this blog, in no way, suggests that finding happiness and warmth is easy. This world is in fact pretty cold to the touch, and … Continue reading Pause.

Memory

Facebook Memory - August 12, 2011 "How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic for the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life, you will have been all of these." -George Washington Carver 💗 Facebook Memory - August … Continue reading Memory

Talk About You.

Purposely, you stabbed me with your words, And let them run about my mind. You found my most buried obstacle That tortured me through seemingly endless time. You knew how far to force your words, just enough to leave your conscience clean. You've brought about a fresh, new wound, That I've got no will to … Continue reading Talk About You.

There will always be someone who can’t see your worth.

I've tried to convince myself that it's an art, a skill, talent of some sort. It settled deep within me, but the intruder will not allow my mind to pin it with such descriptions. "Keep spinning it", I tell myself, in hopes of staying in the sun. Somehow, at this time, I'm unable shift what … Continue reading There will always be someone who can’t see your worth.

WILD

-Troye Sivan https://youtu.be/3awzvNrKDsg 💙💛💖, Bailey

Some hard moments.

When you see your baby hurting, helplessly - it breaks your heart! We've had a go - round with our little chiweenie (chihuahua/dachshund mix)this past week. . . It's been a lot of "should we take her to the vet?" , "I don't know, she seems fine now!" , "let's just watch her" kind of … Continue reading Some hard moments.

“I’m sick of losing soulmates.”

*Explicit song lyrics* "I can take the hit, but I'm sorry - I don't want the bruise." - "Headspace" by Lewis Capaldi Loyalty is a lifestyle - not a choice, but it's a lifestyle that people just don't chose to live anymore. Unfortunately, fibromyalgia and Sjögren's Syndrome choose the loyal behavior far more often than … Continue reading “I’m sick of losing soulmates.”

You’re sorry.

"I'm sorry that I don't know what you're feeling!" It's always said out of anger; I think because you're tired of me "not trying" - such that its obvious to you. Or Maybe because I don't have the energy to fight. Maybe because I don't have the energy to feel such an intense emotion, Maybe … Continue reading You’re sorry.

Shatter

  Have you ever wished for something so silently, you couldn't even hear it yourself? And you wait. And you watch. And wait. And watch. Blank. Disappointment overcomes you. Unbalanced in too many ways. Promises fall apart like sand falling between your fingers. All of the promises. All of the hours... wasted. Silent. I said … Continue reading Shatter

Priorities.

My biggest source of pain, hurt, betrayal, and truth. Priorities. They show you what matters to other's - and when it doesn't turn out to be you, and you've given them your all... I wish I knew how to not wear my heart on my sleeve... Then I have heard that because I do, it … Continue reading Priorities.