“The End of the World”

You feel it, right? Allow me to say, you are far from alone. Isolation is an all too familiar feeling for all of us right now. We all feel it. We all feel alone at the same time. We are all over the quarantine. We are all over the coronavirus. We are all over 2020. … Continue reading “The End of the World”

Happy Birthday Angel “of my life”.

Mimi, Do you remember that? “Angel of my life”, “Light of my life”? I remember you referring to me as either - out at the ranch, in the kitchen, after you’d belly laughed at any of the conversations we used to have. Conversations about anything. You’re eyes were lights as you spent time with your … Continue reading Happy Birthday Angel “of my life”.

Your balance and happiness are priceless.

I wish that I could be more than me; more than someone who lives waiting for something that will never happen. I wish that I could be more than sick, more than lonely, more than “I don’t feel well”, more than depressed, more than the anxiety the occupies my mind always at the worst time. … Continue reading Your balance and happiness are priceless.

A poem for a difficult week.

What’s the feeling you try, but can’t explain The one that tends to block blood flow from your veins? Oxygen suspended, like outer space Go ahead, take a breath before you suffocate. Call up your “friends” for breath and support After all, that’s what they’re there for Right? No, I forget, it’s on their accord … Continue reading A poem for a difficult week.

Three

https://youtu.be/2GNYSWeCwDg “I told you I'd spill my guts.I left you to clean it up,I'm bursting out of the.... Seems like now, it's impossible to work this out.I'm so committed to an old ghost town.Is it really that strange if I always wanna change?And if only - the time and space between us wasn't lonely,I'd disintegrate … Continue reading Three

Upside Down.

My upside down is filled with: Nights to sleep - while I lie awake, Time for adventure - is the time I take, to prevent getting sick, to prevent the pain today, to prevent an asthma attack, to rest for tomorrow's plans - so I lay down, to pull the energy from anywhere around me, … Continue reading Upside Down.

Fall Forward.

Watch this everyday. Use it as your motivation to be the best you - the YOU that you imagine. YOU are enough. YOU can change the world. In the process, though, comes failure. Within that failure, which way are you going to fall? I've given up too often in this life. Sometimes, you have to … Continue reading Fall Forward.

“I’m sick of losing soulmates.”

*Explicit song lyrics* "I can take the hit, but I'm sorry - I don't want the bruise." - "Headspace" by Lewis Capaldi Loyalty is a lifestyle - not a choice, but it's a lifestyle that people just don't chose to live anymore. Unfortunately, fibromyalgia and Sjögren's Syndrome choose the loyal behavior far more often than … Continue reading “I’m sick of losing soulmates.”

Priorities.

My biggest source of pain, hurt, betrayal, and truth. Priorities. They show you what matters to other's - and when it doesn't turn out to be you, and you've given them your all... I wish I knew how to not wear my heart on my sleeve... Then I have heard that because I do, it … Continue reading Priorities.

Feral.

She's different. You pushed her to be different. Her life is full of suppressing her differences so that she can fit in and look popular at school. She pulls it off well. At home, she walks into the door, and collapses - trying not to make it too obvious. Her sister doesn't collapse. At home … Continue reading Feral.