U Don’t Get Me

I can't drive without seeing your face in all the windows of the spots at all ourPlacesAsked my dad, "how long will it take?"He said, "maybe forever, but it will get better...”...I get it, she didn't get me, but my heart is soreNow I’m seeing what this distance is forYou don't get meSo you don't … Continue reading U Don’t Get Me

Black Dog.

Anxiety and pain have been the only two emotions I’ve experienced this year. Yes, this entire year. Blow a bit of happiness across the surface of it all, like glitter, but that’s all that it’s been — specks that shine in the light when you focus enough to see them. In a room of blinding … Continue reading Black Dog.

Happy Birthday Angel “of my life”.

Mimi, Do you remember that? “Angel of my life”, “Light of my life”? I remember you referring to me as either - out at the ranch, in the kitchen, after you’d belly laughed at any of the conversations we used to have. Conversations about anything. You’re eyes were lights as you spent time with your … Continue reading Happy Birthday Angel “of my life”.

Your balance and happiness are priceless.

I wish that I could be more than me; more than someone who lives waiting for something that will never happen. I wish that I could be more than sick, more than lonely, more than “I don’t feel well”, more than depressed, more than the anxiety the occupies my mind always at the worst time. … Continue reading Your balance and happiness are priceless.

“You said

you know best, but I know myself better than that.” Get Lost, Find Peace, Heal ❤️🎶 Music is so healing for me. I never realized how often I go around singing until my throat began hurting from a sinus infection, making it difficult to sing. Sometimes it’s nice just to soak in the lyrics and … Continue reading “You said

Kintsugi.

I'm never going to be THAT girl. Composed and "PERFECT". I'm a jeans a tee kinda girl - with imperfect skin, scars galore, and improvements to be made. I'm sick all of the time, and REST is number one for me to continue to "human". I've broken countless times, but the important part there is … Continue reading Kintsugi.

Q: How am I ok with this??

A: Well, there are endless reasons, but let me begin by saying how PROUD I am of my husband! He hit his 30lb weight loss goal and is feeling and looking better than ever! Explanation for my not being defeated, for my head held high, and my motivation to keep GROWING? I have already had … Continue reading Q: How am I ok with this??

Hurt people hurt people.

A Rare Lesson in Life Click above to watch an amazing story of kindness and empathy. She paints such a beautiful picture of all that our world could be, if only we all remembered that everyone has a battle they're fighting. All that we need to do is be kind. It sounds so easy, when … Continue reading Hurt people hurt people.

Upside Down.

My upside down is filled with: Nights to sleep - while I lie awake, Time for adventure - is the time I take, to prevent getting sick, to prevent the pain today, to prevent an asthma attack, to rest for tomorrow's plans - so I lay down, to pull the energy from anywhere around me, … Continue reading Upside Down.

Talk About You.

Purposely, you stabbed me with your words, And let them run about my mind. You found my most buried obstacle That tortured me through seemingly endless time. You knew how far to force your words, just enough to leave your conscience clean. You've brought about a fresh, new wound, That I've got no will to … Continue reading Talk About You.