“She loves me no matter what. He loves me no matter what.” -Calum Scott I've always had a list of things in my head; what to do, what not to do. What hurts, what fills up the emptiness. What breaks down, what rebuilds - and the time difference between negative and positive is insane. "It … Continue reading Authoritarian,
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That Big Red LABEL
I haven't really mentioned anything about my life directly in a little while, but good news is we are taking away the: Bipolar label! Now they just call me chronically depressed. 😕 I hate that they're right. Only sometimes though. Do you how hard it is? To have a stamp on your head, at age … Continue reading That Big Red LABEL
Just let the music speak for you… 🎶
👹 What if I let you in, and you don't like what you see? 'Cause it's not what it seems - let me tell you why... You have no idea, yeah, you've only seen a piece, But now it's underneath - no I cannot lie. Sometimes I get so frustrated. I've tried a million times … Continue reading Just let the music speak for you… 🎶
“Embrace yourself, and finally come to the conclusion that you are loved – and you can love yourself.” -Unknown
"You can never have too many reminders -- [you] are beautiful no matter what."-Alessia Cara I’m with you. I feel you girl. [Needing to vent] is where my blog came from, because at least if no one cared, the “likes” would still love be the same. I’ve realized that it’s when you’re exhausted, it’s when … Continue reading “Embrace yourself, and finally come to the conclusion that you are loved – and you can love yourself.” -Unknown
Catch a Panic
It's easy to catch panic around here lately. Maybe it's where I live. Maybe it's the grass that surrounds our home of bricks - Thrown into random weeds. Maybe it's the clutter that makes me feel closed in, But when i ask you, you say our home is clean. It might be in the breath … Continue reading Catch a Panic
Sunshine & Starlight
Yesterday, I walked up to their house in a hurry. I was about 10 minutes later than planned. My DD opened the front door - I was greeted by his Mini Aussie, named Ring and a strong, loving hug - the hug I've missed along this road. He felt better today since he was going … Continue reading Sunshine & Starlight
Invisible Outside.
Sjögren gets bored. And Fibromyalgia is a silent assassin. My moisture producing glands have been attacked Until They are completely annihilated. Every single mucosa membrane - dry. 3 years ago we got this answer. I was a competitive cheerleader. I used to lift people and defy gravity against all odds... but, 3 years into finding … Continue reading Invisible Outside.
Dear Fibromyalgia,
(Update on life following these empowering song lyrics I felt compelled to share.) Dear Fibromyalgia, "The fire used to burn. All the words used to hurt, "but you're not like us - you're different."I couldn't see that that was a compliment. Because the last thing I want now is to be you. And the flames … Continue reading Dear Fibromyalgia,
Pain.
I've always struggled with lower back pain and muscle knots.. I've always asked my giving husband to work on relieving those knots from my lower back. Upon standing up from catching some Zzzzs today, this pain was different. This pain started in my lower back, and radiated up my spine to my shoulders. This pain … Continue reading Pain.
Sick.
When stress kicks off your flares, and your main girl gets so sick (she's broken out in more hives y'all), I can just hunker down and wait.. Here it comes: Stomach ache/food repulsion and aversion Joint pain Itchy skin Rib pain (costochondirtis) 😫 Skin pain Hair loss Ultimate exhaustion Noise sensitivity Just to name the … Continue reading Sick.
