“Stay inside order”: My mind…

is a mess of confusion with no possibility of finding any answers. Y’all too? This is so exhausting... The emotional turmoil is too much sometimes. Just. Trust. - nothing more, nothing less. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and … Continue reading “Stay inside order”: My mind…

A poem for a difficult week.

What’s the feeling you try, but can’t explain The one that tends to block blood flow from your veins? Oxygen suspended, like outer space Go ahead, take a breath before you suffocate. Call up your “friends” for breath and support After all, that’s what they’re there for Right? No, I forget, it’s on their accord … Continue reading A poem for a difficult week.

“You said

you know best, but I know myself better than that.” Get Lost, Find Peace, Heal ❤️🎶 Music is so healing for me. I never realized how often I go around singing until my throat began hurting from a sinus infection, making it difficult to sing. Sometimes it’s nice just to soak in the lyrics and … Continue reading “You said

Kintsugi.

I'm never going to be THAT girl. Composed and "PERFECT". I'm a jeans a tee kinda girl - with imperfect skin, scars galore, and improvements to be made. I'm sick all of the time, and REST is number one for me to continue to "human". I've broken countless times, but the important part there is … Continue reading Kintsugi.

It’s the normal life now.

Well, it's about time for real words and real life rather than the passive/creative/poet style/story telling format that usually comes from my over-sensitized brain and sometimes (probably most actually) from my broken heart from the cruelty of our nonadaptive world. . . The weather has been beautiful here. We have prayed for rain, for I'm … Continue reading It’s the normal life now.

Reach Out To Someone.

When it hails on the windows, The wind pushes the ice to an angle, The sky lights up with lightening, The thunder amplifies it's cry. "Look at me here! Now listen, please. Hear me this once. I beg of you. Just look, I'm here!... ...Why did I even show? They complain when I don't, and … Continue reading Reach Out To Someone.

Sjögren’s Awareness Month

APRIL! It's come around again! Having a chronic illness isn't just about finding support and a shoulder to lean on when times get tough (if you're able to lean on someone, that is...) It's about finding awareness inside of people that hadn't heard the name, hadn't known someone who, hadn't given a thought. It's about … Continue reading Sjögren’s Awareness Month

That Big Red LABEL

I haven't really mentioned anything about my life directly in a little while, but good news is we are taking away the: Bipolar label! Now they just call me chronically depressed. 😕 I hate that they're right. Only sometimes though. Do you how hard it is? To have a stamp on your head, at age … Continue reading That Big Red LABEL

Shatter

  Have you ever wished for something so silently, you couldn't even hear it yourself? And you wait. And you watch. And wait. And watch. Blank. Disappointment overcomes you. Unbalanced in too many ways. Promises fall apart like sand falling between your fingers. All of the promises. All of the hours... wasted. Silent. I said … Continue reading Shatter