“Stay inside order”: My mind…

is a mess of confusion with no possibility of finding any answers. Y’all too? This is so exhausting... The emotional turmoil is too much sometimes. Just. Trust. - nothing more, nothing less. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and … Continue reading “Stay inside order”: My mind…

“You said

you know best, but I know myself better than that.” Get Lost, Find Peace, Heal ❤️🎶 Music is so healing for me. I never realized how often I go around singing until my throat began hurting from a sinus infection, making it difficult to sing. Sometimes it’s nice just to soak in the lyrics and … Continue reading “You said

Kintsugi.

I'm never going to be THAT girl. Composed and "PERFECT". I'm a jeans a tee kinda girl - with imperfect skin, scars galore, and improvements to be made. I'm sick all of the time, and REST is number one for me to continue to "human". I've broken countless times, but the important part there is … Continue reading Kintsugi.

…, but you’re supposed to be.

; I refuse to believe your lies. Dear Body, You will not break me. Do you know how frustrating you make life? I hate that it affects so many other people, and there's nothing that I can do about it. I'm supposed to lose chunks of you, but you laugh at the thought of it. … Continue reading …, but you’re supposed to be.

Reach Out To Someone.

When it hails on the windows, The wind pushes the ice to an angle, The sky lights up with lightening, The thunder amplifies it's cry. "Look at me here! Now listen, please. Hear me this once. I beg of you. Just look, I'm here!... ...Why did I even show? They complain when I don't, and … Continue reading Reach Out To Someone.

Sjögren’s Awareness Month

APRIL! It's come around again! Having a chronic illness isn't just about finding support and a shoulder to lean on when times get tough (if you're able to lean on someone, that is...) It's about finding awareness inside of people that hadn't heard the name, hadn't known someone who, hadn't given a thought. It's about … Continue reading Sjögren’s Awareness Month

Together

(He is the only one who has spent his time to know me and my family -- something no one else has cared to do.) It took no hesitation for him to dive blindly into deeper seen shades of vibrancy. (Now) ten years deep into a belief never questioned and not once considered to abandon, … Continue reading Together

Authoritarian,

“She loves me no matter what. He loves me no matter what.” -Calum Scott I've always had a list of things in my head; what to do, what not to do. What hurts, what fills up the emptiness. What breaks down, what rebuilds - and the time difference between negative and positive is insane. "It … Continue reading Authoritarian,

That Big Red LABEL

I haven't really mentioned anything about my life directly in a little while, but good news is we are taking away the: Bipolar label! Now they just call me chronically depressed. 😕 I hate that they're right. Only sometimes though. Do you how hard it is? To have a stamp on your head, at age … Continue reading That Big Red LABEL

Shatter

  Have you ever wished for something so silently, you couldn't even hear it yourself? And you wait. And you watch. And wait. And watch. Blank. Disappointment overcomes you. Unbalanced in too many ways. Promises fall apart like sand falling between your fingers. All of the promises. All of the hours... wasted. Silent. I said … Continue reading Shatter