Worried for my husband. Packed an entire house. Visited family. Attempted with all of me to visit a “friend”. I believe that’s when we became no longer friends. Came in and out of 2 flares. Disassociated with reality to avoid a number of panic attacks. Informed doctors of new information. Drove 6 hours at a… Continue reading Everything At Once 🎶
Author: FMSunShine
Hi,
My name is Bailey🤗
I started this blog just to be able to spill my feelings out. You know, the ones I felt I couldn't keep inside for a long time. I hope some of these words may benefit someone out there! I’ve got quite a list of medical diagnoses that tend to cast a shadow over the light that burns within me, so that’s my current life goal: fearlessly making sunshine through the shadows. 🌻
Skin.✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿
I could tell you of the goals I’ve met lately within my journey for health. I could take up this space with complaints of my skin, the abrasions that are forming and taking months to heal. I could tell you how scared I am of what they could be. I could tell you of a… Continue reading Skin.✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿
U Don’t Get Me
I can't drive without seeing your face in all the windows of the spots at all ourPlacesAsked my dad, "how long will it take?"He said, "maybe forever, but it will get better...”...I get it, she didn't get me, but my heart is soreNow I’m seeing what this distance is forYou don't get meSo you don't… Continue reading U Don’t Get Me
Born To Die
Don't make me sad, don't make me crySometimes love is not enough, and the road gets tough,I don't know why.- “Born To Die” by Lana Del Rey https://youtu.be/Bag1gUxuU0g
Black Dog.
Anxiety and pain have been the only two emotions I’ve experienced this year. Yes, this entire year. Blow a bit of happiness across the surface of it all, like glitter, but that’s all that it’s been — specks that shine in the light when you focus enough to see them. In a room of blinding… Continue reading Black Dog.
What she said…
Not because of the quarantine. Not because of every “what if”, “ when”, and “why” that haven’t been answered. My heart has had enough. The back and forth, up and down... Sometimes people just don’t deserve to be in your life because of their effect on you. The way that you treat and talk to… Continue reading What she said…
“The End of the World”
You feel it, right? Allow me to say, you are far from alone. Isolation is an all too familiar feeling for all of us right now. We all feel it. We all feel alone at the same time. We are all over the quarantine. We are all over the coronavirus. We are all over 2020.… Continue reading “The End of the World”
“I’d apologize if it was black and white,
but life is different —just try to listen to me now...How the hell did I lose a friend I never had?”- FINNEAS https://youtu.be/3mMVcCMO_Ng
Fear of the unknown.
Hopeless and beyond help, I was in so much pain. My doctors diagnosed me with several autoimmune diseases, fibromyalgia, depression, and anxiety in 2015. At this point, it had been 3 years (that felt like a lifetime) dealing with this, and it was only getting more unbearable by the day. The medications stacked up. My… Continue reading Fear of the unknown.
Art Misunderstood.
Art. It’s all for you to perceive, another will interpret the piece for themselves. Often, the two perceptions are incredibly different. Isn’t that what makes art, well, art? Opinions can become harmful for those who interpret the artwork in such a way that it was not composed from. Different views. Different experiences. Different lives. One… Continue reading Art Misunderstood.
