Autoimmune Disease

Some hard moments.

When you see your baby hurting, helplessly – it breaks your heart! We’ve had a go – round with our little chiweenie (chihuahua/dachshund mix)this past week. . .

It’s been a lot of “should we take her to the vet?” , “I don’t know, she seems fine now!” , “let’s just watch her” kind of unknown issue. So 4 days ago, when her symptoms seemed even more demanding, it was decided between Brady and I that we had to take her in for a look over and whatever else they needed to do.

She had been tucking her rear underneath her as much as possible, being very hesitant and protective of her back end. I began putting her on a low set heating bad (covered with blankets for her to lay on top of), and she would lay curled up on it. About 30 minutes later, she would sprawl out on her side, and right around then, she began eating and drinking again, she walked normally with her tail upright – as if nothing had been bothering her at all.

These pictures are when her muscles were very stiff:

Taking her to the vet here, this first picture was part of a video that she cried in and was pushing her head against my face or shoulder (which is not normal behavior for her during a car): Of course at the vet – she acted like nothing was wrong at all, because she was begging “mom please take me home!” 😂

Regardless of anyway she was she was acting, I’m so thankful that we ended up taking her in when we did. She was diagnosed with:

  • A compressed disk midway down her back, which they specified, is classified as IVDD, however it is very minor. That’s our goal, to keep it that way!
  • Nerve pain from the disk compression
  • A loose knee cap that easily slips out of place

She’s been there from day 1 of health issues for me. I’ll be there for her every time – she is my baby – period.

These fur babies (plus my other two! 🐱🐱) and of course my husband (without a doubt!) are my everything. I wake up everyday hoping to make my husband’s life/job/day better. I watch over these fur babies and the love I have for them is the closest love that I will ever feel in regards to mom and child, unless we eventually adopt. They’ve been my emotional support and have kept my hope around when I wanted to drop it all and forget all of the frustration and heartache in finding answers to life’s trials.

For me, my fur babies represent hope and comfort – which sounds dramatic to others, however everyone has something that they find their strength replenished by, and I promise you, I will never judge you for your representation of hope and comfort. We all need it!

She did very well right after the vet with her new medication for nerve pain, a muscle relaxer, and steroid for inflammation. She didn’t want anything to do with her heating pad!

The last two days, she been on the edge of ok, leaning towards good. She’s taken heavy advantage of her heating pad though, and has looked a little out of it through both days.

We both may utilize some days as our “sick days” at “work” because I’m getting thrown into a flare, too.

On that note, I’m having a very very difficult and frustrating time trying to determine what my “best” day would be considered as. What do I wait for? How do I know when? How far can I push?

It just swirls in my head and ends up causing me anxiety more than anything.

“Whatever you are, be a good one.” ✨

Staring right back into the black waiting for the sky to fall
And all that I see reflecting at me, a face I’ve never seen before
If all that I need is just out of reach I might never see the sun
But then you come and turn the lights on

Suddenly I see a way out
And all I need is you to show me how

To colour me in
I’m ready to start again
Kaleidoscope eyes
Are finally focusing
I’ve been spending my days
Losing my ways
Everything fades to grey
So colour me in
Colour me in

Touching your skin, breathing you in is bringing me back to life
All of our flaws were locked behind doors but now we’re on the inside
I wasn’t sure that I’ll make it through all of the darker shades
But then you came and turned the lights on

Colour me in
I’m ready to start again
Kaleidoscope eyes
Are finally focusing
I’ve been spending my days
Losing my ways
Everything fades to grey
So colour me in
Colour me in

Come save me from myself
If you let me,
I’ll colour you in
Come save me from myself
I’m ready. . .

I’m ready to start again
Kaleidoscope eyes
Are finally focusing
I’ve been spending my days
Losing my ways
Everything fades to grey
So colour me in
Colour me in

Colour Me In” by Nick Wilson

☀️🦋❤️,

Bailey

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s