Autoimmune Disease

I dare you.

And all of the doctors sang in a harmonious tune “we told you so”.

I just don’t like to be told what to do. 🤷🏻‍♀️

You go to a doctor for help. And I’m not sorry for expecting a solution in any case – especially for my chronic illnesses.

If I had a dollar for every time I heard this:

It’s so stabbing to hear that. Almost as if they’re blaming you for your pain, blaming you for *not being able to* be active. They expect you to just do it.

And you kind of of get to a point where… you do.

You just do it.

Because it’s not worth it anymore.

And it ends up being the only thing that you haven’t tried in your search for relief.

And after only 4 days into my new journey, I feel better than I’ve ever felt in my life. I’m eating foods that are used as fuel rather than “ugh it makes me nauseous to think about eating…”. Fueling your body is hard when your constantly in pain and want to throw up because of it.

Do I still have pain? Yes.

HOWEVER, in the last two days, I forgot to take my scheduled neuropathy medication and never realized it until I looked at the clock. I’ve still had to take pain medication to give me the confidence of “I CAN do this!”and after that dose, another has been a rarity in these last few days.

I feel a difference… not just in my clothing, but also in a general pattern through every day. My body’s cycles are lining up. I’m sleeping normal hours – pretty deeply, and in REM pattern!

Y’all want to check out the “visible” Sjögrens from working out? (Its literally nothing….)

I’m going to do this.

I promised my Mimi that I would feel better… “I have no idea how you’re going to do it… but promise me?”

So in a way, I’m doing this for her…

But mostly, I’m doing this for me, because I’ve found my value. I’ve found my strength. I’ve found many ways of which I never knew I was capable. And the longer I work, the stronger I get. So I’m going to do it. And if you’d like to join me, let me know! Anyone can feel this great! Anyone can find their light that was hidden so deeply that it seems to not exist anymore. Y’all, I’ve been there. Do it! Try it!

“I’m worth fighting for.”

I can remember a time when I was so afraid
When even my shadow wouldn’t follow me

So I’m picking up my sword
To shatter all the pieces that I was before
‘Cause I’m worth fighting for
For

So put me in a cage
Lock me in a room
Throw away the key
I dare you
I’ll break down the walls

I’ll higher wrecking ball
And I won’t let you tear me down, no

I had an opinion, but I never spoke my mind
And I wouldn’t argue, even when I knew I was right

But I’m not that girl anymore
Yeah, I lost the battle but I won the war
‘Cause I’m worth fighting for
For

So put me in a cage
Lock me in a room
Throw away the key
I dare you
I’ll break down the walls

I’ll higher wrecking ball
And I won’t let you tear me down, no

I just kept on running, running, running
Trying to find out who I was
I would go the distance but it wasn’t far enough
but now I’m standing straight and know exactly who I am
I can remember a time when I was so afraid

Put me in a cage
Lock me in a room
Throw away the key
I dare you
I’ll break down the walls
Ill higher wrecking ball
And I won’t let you tear me down, no
Throw away the key
I dare you,
And I won’t let you tear me down, no

-“I dare you” by Bea Miller

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️,

Bailey

One thought on “I dare you.

  1. Working the body is as vital as breathing. I picked up the saying somewhere..”A body in motion, stays in motion”. I know it’s a silly saying especially if you’re big on the physics of movement, but it actually applies to exercise 😅

    I’m happy you decided to go on this journey. It’s tough to get started, but once you do, you feel so much better about yourself mentally and physically. I’ve actually lost a few pants sizes myself recently (happy I never made it to Goodwill with the smaller sizes I thought I’d never see again). I’m especially proud of you for fighting through the pain. It’ll all be worth it in the end.

    I adopted a vegan diet a few months back for about half a year and I felt great. The food I ate wasn’t always the most flavorful, but it was eating to live. I’m thinking of going back down that road again now seeing how meat is starting to give me the blues again..or green 🤢 lol

    Keep up the hard work, beautiful! I’m sure your Mimi has a huge smile on her face, shining down on your efforts 😁 Stay strong. Stay motivated. And most of all, stay awesome 😉😁💙

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