Autoimmune Disease · Cancer · Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday, Angel 💜

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Support the Fighter.

Admire the Survivor.

Honor the Taken.

“So now I am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other.”

‭‭John‬ ‭13:34‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Is there a better Verse of the Day for today?

My Mimi.

Full of spirit and love – endless love. And kindness, oh so much kindness. Such a soft place to fall during or after a hard day.

How lucky am I to have been blessed enough to have such an understanding supporter in my life who was only one phone call, one text message away? I’ve never known a life without a supporter who happened to completely understand every second of my days just as well as I lived it (because she did too).

Today, we celebrated you. I thought of memories, and the life that I witnessed you live – pure, full of love, beautiful, kind, compassionate, patient, full of light…

Each of your daily struggles, minimized by your smile that lit your eyes like the Rockefeller Center tree during Christmas Season. Each struggle brought, both, you and I strength. You gained experience for me so that I would believe in what my body so clearly was screaming at the top of its lungs when everywhere else it was brushed aside.

You made me see a factual world, invisible to any other’s eye – only made to be seen by the strongest of God’s warriors. Visible pain. Visible illnesses, that upon being looked at by the world, would take on the appearance of your own face.

You earned, and worked for, and searched for, and loved for your perfect body. Now that you no longer hurt or ache or tire, my faults seem to be an entirely new kind of enormous – far away from anyone who may relate. Without someone close to trust in an invisible world, I’ve become weak in the pain. Worn down by the tides. Ive been made weak in the constant. Weak in the past. Weak during the hard times, and weak in the bright times. As it turns out, God’s strength becomes visible through our weaknesses.

He is incredibly strong in me, because on my own, I am broken and crumpled into a pile of pain on the concrete. Only now, with His hand to lift me off of the ground can I stand – no longer on my own, but it took being on my own to realize that I was never on my own at all…

Your prayers helped me to stand under Guided and Well Balanced leadership and growth.

For that I cannot thank you enough.

I will never be glad/happy/ok without you here. I will never even settle in the words, but what I will settle in, is that you knew of your leaving not being in vain.

I long to learn and grow into the selfless angel, sitting at the right hand of Christ, someday. What a goal, what a hope, and what a difference it would make, if only I could someday be more like you.

Happy birthday to my Miracle Angel – Happy birthday to the grandmother that taught me far more than I can pick up all at once in the age that I am – Happy birthday to a woman who cared more for us to have beautiful childhood memories to look back on rather than another set of parents – Happy birthday to a lifelong friend, a lifelong person of whom I trusted with my life – Happy birthday to the woman who taught me how to see the beauty in the smallest things and littlest places – Happy birthday to a family member who, by miracle, was close enough to me to show that it was possible to keep pushing through, no matter how difficult you thought the world became – Happy birthday to my angel, Happy birthday to my Mimi.

I love you so much.

Thank you for choosing the color of my coffee cups in the morning 😉

Thank you for showing me what unconditional is. Thank you for making your love the most obvious trait.

Happy birthday “precious one”. Happy birthday to my “miracle”. Happy birthday, Mimi. I hope that somehow this message gets passed along the way, but somehow i don’t doubt for a second that it will. ❤️

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“Because someone we love is in Heaven, there is a little bit of Heaven is inside our home.”

 

Waiting anxiously to see all that you have found to show me…❤️☀️🦋

 

Love Always,

Your Sunshine ☀️🦋💜

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