Autoimmune Disease

🎶 I don’t have the answers…

I will always hold your fragile hand. “I don’t care what you say – I’m not letting go.” (I love that you laughed at that the other day.)I’ve walked behind you through my life, and now we enjoy the “remember when”s as I kneel at your bedside. I’m so thankful, so grateful, and ever so soaking in the love of our memories.“Remember when, and now.. I wasn’t really asleep… but I was pretending for you little toots…. and you two out cool whip on my face?”“Remember when I let you two cut my hair at “the farm”?”… it was more of a ranch, but we called it “the farm”.“Remember when I made homemade vanilla ice cream? And we would top it with Nesquick?” YES! ☺️“My miracle baby. You’ll always be my miracle baby.”You have your wheel chair set up and window open so that you can look at your gorgeously landscaped backyard – rose bushes, butterfly bushes, a bird bath, and your watch dog running around when DD lets him out. Rose bushes have always been wherever you reside. 🌹 I’ve been a little down. Ive been a little out. I’ve been in pain badly, I can’t imagine what she’s going through for Morphine and Zofran to be swallowed into her body.Through my life, I’ve been speechless. I’ve been down before. I’ve been out before… but never for this length of time.The only words I can find are somber. Everyone is so worried and chaotic and searching for something already… I would never want to bring them down with my words, and that includes myself…Sometimes I let music speak for me. I think that’s what I’m going to do for now.❤️I love you, Mimi. ❤️☀️🦋

I’m finding myself at a loss for words,

And the funny thing is it’s okay.

The last thing I need is to be heard,

But to hear what You would say.

Word of God speak!

Would you pour down like rain?

Washing my eyes to see

Your majesty,

To be still and know

That you’re in this place,

Please let me stay and rest

In your holiness –

Word of God speak. 🎶

-“Word of God Speak” by MercyMe

Click to listen to “Word of God Speak” 🎶

I don’t have the answers, and maybe that’s okay,

But we can search together, I’m not running away.

And it’s okay to feel, the way that you do.

And when you reach the end of yourself, I’ll be there too.

When you can’t trust, I’ll trust for you.

When you can’t move, I’ll stay with you.

You’re not alone, it’s all I can say.

I don’t have the answers, and maybe that’s okay.

I don’t have the answers…

But I can feel your heartache, I know it’s not okay.

And I know you feel like you’re gonna break, but don’t pull away.

And it’s okay to feel, the way that you do.

When you reach the end of yourself, I’ll be there too.

When you can’t trust, I’ll trust for you.

When you can’t move, I’ll stay with you.

You’re not alone, it’s all I can say.

I don’t have the answers, and maybe that’s okay.

I don’t have the answers… 🎶

– ” I don’t have the answers” by We Are The Messengers

Click to Listen to “I Don’t Have The Answers” 🎶🌹

✌🏼& 💜,Bailey

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