Autoimmune Disease · Cancer · Depression

I’m Wrecked.

This last year has given me every reason to enjoy the people around me that are present. I think more people would do the same if they remembered that at anytime, we could lose someone we love. I don’t ask this much… but right now, I feel is a time that is appropriate to reach out to those I know. I ask right now, for prayers sent my family’s way. For strength during this time that we cannot walk. For guidance in the darkness that feels never ending. For tomorrow to be better, as my great grandmother used to say many times. For my DD to rise up and walk with my Mimi as she is lead towards the light. A true angel – she has forever been. A true gift to this world. My grandad, my dad and aunt (her children), her 4 grandchildren, and the spouses that have married into our family… friends she’s met and given a smile to … she has always always welcomed us with open arms and a great big smile that will forever be so thankfully hard to forget. Send prayers our way… that we are not letting go, but guiding her walk towards our true home.

And they can’t make it better this time…

Pain +

Multiplied depression +

Random anxiety attacks +

Family conflict +

Betrayal +

Exhaustion +

An unmendable heart

(all multiplied by)

Cancer =

The inevitability of life.

How do I get through this?

“I need you right now…

If you want,

I’ll be there on the edge of the night

When you need me.

We can talk,

Talk it out till the sun’s coming up;

I’ll go sleepless if you need this.

So put your hands on me, hands on me

When I’m all fucked up.

Come on lie to me, lie to me

Say I’m strong enough.

Come on, carry me home

Take the weight on your shoulders.

Put your hands on me, hands on me

When I’m tearing up…

Everything feels different in the rain when it’s

Pouring down your face and you need somebody…

Everything feels different in the pain and

You don’t want to explain you just need somebody…

I need you right now,

Could you be that somebody?

I need you right now…

I don’t want to drown,

Could you be that somebody?

I need you right now, now.

If I’m blue,

Will you call me, whenever, to touch when I’m silent?

‘Cause it’s true,

I don’t always believe in my will to keep fighting –

But I’m trying.

So put your hands on me, hands on me

When I’m all fucked up.

Come on lie to me, lie to me

Say I’m strong enough.

Come on, carry me home

Take the weight on your shoulders.

Put your hands on me, hands on me

When I’m tearing up…

Everything feels different in the rain when it’s

Pouring down your face and you need somebody.

Everything feels different in the pain and

You don’t want to explain you just need somebody.

I need you right now,

Could you be that somebody?

I need you right now…

I don’t want to drown,

Could you be that somebody?

I need you right now, now.

Could you be the place that I run?

Could you be the sky that I’m falling into?

Could you be the one that I trust?

I need to know ’cause…

Everything feels different in the rain when it’s

Pouring down your face and you need somebody.

Everything feels different in the pain and

You don’t want to explain you just need somebody.

I need you right now,

Could you be that somebody?

I need you right now”

“I Need You Right Now” by Hedegaard & Hayley Warner

🎶 Click Here To Listen🎶

✌🏼& 💜,

🦋&☀️,

Bailey

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