Autoimmune Disease

Fight For It

“I’ve been told that I’m not good enough a million times. I’ve been trying to kid myself with a million lies. I’ve been saying “I’m so strong” when I’m dying inside. I was engineered that way; I’ve been left behind. ”

“Well, you are more than you will ever know you are. 

Don’t tell me that you’re gonna run away from it now –

You’re gonna stand here and fight for it.

Don’t tell me that you can’t, and that you’re gonna back down –

You’re gonna stand here and fight for it. 

And I know, it’s been cold in your soul. And you know that I’ve been there too.

Don’t tell me that you’re gonna run away from it now; I’m gonna stand here and fight with you.”

“I start to unravel ’cause I’m battling the darkest storm, but I’m still here, and it’s clear I’ve got to win this war. My tongues been tied, and my hands been forced – everything seems so much better when I’m holding yours.”

“Don’t tell me that you’re gonna run away from it now –

You’re gonna stand here and fight for it. 

Don’t tell me that you can’t, and you’re gonna back down –

You’re gonna stand here and fight for it.

And I know it’s been cold in your soul. And you know that I’ve been thiere too.

Don’t tell me that you’re gonna run away from it now; I’m gonna stand here and fight with you.” 

“Someone said “reach for the stars“, but I reach for the clouds – so if I fall, at least I know I’m back on the ground. I float back up, and then I swim back down –   because I won’t sink, no I won’t drown.”

“Don’t tell me that you’re gonna run away from it now –

You’re gonna stand here and fight for it.

Dont tell me that you can’t, and you’re gonna back down –

You’re gonna stand here and fight for it.

And I know it’s been cold in your soul, and you know that I’ve been there too.

Don’t tell me that you’re gonna run away from it now –

I’m gonna stand here and fight with you.”



Song: Lucy Spraggan
Portrait: Tash Capstick

The other day, while walking into the doctor’s office, a yellow butterfly crossed my path – left to right. 
Later that afternoon , driving home from the store, a yellow butterfly crossed my windshield, left to right, as I was waiting to pull out of the parking lot.

Flying straight, but up and down as well. Call it a coincidence.. I’m not exactly sure. If it was a sign, I’m not sure what it meant… 
I didn’t see any butterflies this year – except those two.

I’m still not sure what to make of it. 🦋 
I know butterflies stand for many things: hope, healing, patience…

And yellow means happiness and friendship to me…

Maybe it’s one of those things that you smile at and walk on passed… but I can’t help that it brought such peace into my heart in those moments.

✌🏼&💜,

Bailey








2 thoughts on “Fight For It

  1. I appreciate the kindness in your words. I’m so glad that this was encouraging and inspiring for you too. I found the odds of the same type of butterfly, flying up and down, but left to right, across my path strange and unlikely. Still, they are the only 2 butterflies that I have seen this year. Butterflies also stand for both Sjögren’s and Fibromyalgia… just the simplicity was peaceful in the moment. ❤️ 🦋

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