Dear Fibromyalgia,

(Update on life following these empowering song lyrics I felt compelled to share.)

Dear Fibromyalgia,

“The fire used to burn. All the words used to hurt, “but you’re not like us –  you’re different.”I couldn’t see that that was a compliment. Because the last thing I want now is to be you.

And the flames don’t feel as hot as they use to.

Burn! Burn! Burn!

They used to yell.

You thought I was coal,

My friend, I’m gold . . .

Can’t you tell?

Because I’m not weak, I’m not broken, I am bold. And the fire you put me through turned me into gold.

I’m not done; I’m no loser.

Watch me take on my bright future. 

Tonight, I’m no bronze, I’m no silver. 

You’ll be thinking “Damn I knew her”, but you didn’t – Don’t get it twisted.

Out of the ashes you buried me in,
I am golden. 

You tried so hard to break me down. Like a fire-breathing dragon, but I guess I took your crown. You pushed for me to change for you, but I’m so glad that I stayed true to who I am. 

The fire that you tried to burn me with, it made me who I am. 
All the things that you said I couldn’t do,

Guess what? Yes I can. 

Out of the ashes you buried me in;
I am golden. ”

– “Golden” by Ruth B

I never thought one day I’d wake up sick and never feel better. Medication on top of medication that helps my body get through one single day. I’ve been fighting with fibromyalgia since I’ve not been posting..on top of losing my husband’s grandad, getting a family diagnosis, and giving up carrying a baby for real… it’s been tough. But I heard that song today… “Golden” by Ruth B… and it gave me pride to stand up out of the ashes that surround me. Just as the song says, I’m golden.. you can’t burn me fibro. I’m too strong for you to break me down.

You can get down on yourself. And it’s ok to even cry some. But don’t ever give up.

Because giving up would be giving in.. and I will never give in to this disease. No matter what it takes, medication on top of medication, crying night after crying night, you’ll see me during the day – fighting. Because that’s what warriors do. They fight. ⚔️

✌🏼️&💜,

Bailey